Resolutions mean essentially one thing: change.
Ah yes. Many blogs today are probably writing up their goals for the year. Things they would like to change. But if only it were so simple for me.
Changing some things is easy. Changing your shoes, tire, hell even an ingredient in a recipe is relatively easy. But changing the way we do things is oh so tricky….
Although I’m not that old, I’m old enough to know what makes me change and what doesn’t. I know that changes take time with me. Letting go of exercising for 3 plus hour everyday took a few good years. And I cannot honestly say that I still have some of those demons yelling in my head.
I also know that I dont handle instant change very well. Like with what happened to my father. He was totally normal one day, and the next day, couldn’t remember the name of his own mother. Since I get impatient waiting for water to boil, I wanted him to “change back” to the father I knew when he was healthy the minuet he got out of the hospital.
I’m still uneasy about him, but he’s slowly but surly recovering, and I’m slowly but surly beginning to accept that he will never be 100%. Well, at least no tomorrow.
So I’m not writing resolutions or goals for next year. I suppose my goal is simply to not have one. To let my life unfold, let changes that happen slowly happen at their own pace, and accept those changes that come instantly.
Oh, and maybe lose 10 pounds.
I suppose most of you have been asked on other blogs what your goals for next year are, so instead I’ll be random and ask what the best that this year was for you? For me, I think the whole foodbuzz experience was awesome and proabably my favorite moment of the year.
In other news, I got a new job as a personal chef so in addition to the cooking and yoga class I teach, I’ll be cooking for a family. Juggling the extra work and making sure things with my dad are running smoothly leaves me little time to comment of some of you guys’ blogs. I apologize, but life happens and thats a good thing.
Anyhow, I actually had a fantastic recipe but I left my camera at work! I promise, your in for a real “treat” tomorrow!