I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving.
Again, I’m not gonna try to BS you and this blog is one of the few things preserving my sanity right now so I will fill you in on whats going on.
With my dad, not much has changed. No worse or better, but at least stable and under heavy watch. There is a big clot on the left side of his brain but its a very delicate region so they dont want to opporate unless the absolutly need too. Since there has been no major change in the clot, they are hoping to wait it out so that the swelling will go down on its own without surgery.
What does that mean? A few days in a horrible limbo. I’m not sure if its better, I dont know if its worse, I dont know what to expect, all of my dad’s family and friend are calling me. Its weird.
The worst part is when I can see my dad frustrated that he can’t remember names. I’m beyond elated he knows mine, but his short term memory is not great.
Today I did no activity. Very rare for me as I’ll usually be active in some way or another. But I can’t think about going into downdog or running and even walking back to my car from the hospital seemed irritating. Everything seems annoying, even reading blogs (so if you dont see me comment, don’t get offended, but its hard to read all of your guys’ fabulous thanksgiving recaps when mine was spent with tea in an ICU).
But I will try tomorrow to go to a yoga class in the morning to help quiet my mind. I didn’t want to go, but my dad’s girlfriend wanted me to engage in something that might ease my anxiety. I’ll give it a go. Just like prayers, it can’t hurt.
And a big ass thank you to all of your prayers and support. I’m so ashamed if I’ve ever doubted the blog community in anyway. You guys are amazing and you guys help me tick in this rough time. I have no plans to stop blogging, and no matter what happens, I will continue my usual shenangigans and recipes. But for now, I need to get this out. You guys are the best medicine for me right now. And lord knows, my own brain needs to be relieved. So thanks, and I’ll be sure to update you.