Hey readers and lurkers (and lurkers, why dont you delurk every once in a while).
Ok, so I’m back with the “thank you letters” but I’m seriously thinking they are kinda unpopular among readers so I’m only doing two Why two? Well, because I really need to get these last two out there. The first of the two that I will present to you today is a thank you letter to my eating disorder. Yep, gasp if you need to. Here goes nothing:
Dear Eden’s Eating Disorder,
What’s happenin hot stuff? Actually, you are not very hot at all, in fact you lack so much body fat that even in 86 degree weather you complain of being chilly. Anyhow, I know I am not the best of friends with you at the moment (and I’m not trying to make amends here, dont get too excited), but I need to once and for all thank you in order to truly let go of you for good.
Thanks. Thanks for killing time when everything bored my to death. You gave my mind something to think about, something to calculate, something to criticize, and something to occupy the emptiness I had. I was depeleted after my mom passed away, and you filled that space. You became my “stress ball” and my best friend. Instead of drugs or alcohol, I chose you. Not that you were the healthiest choice, but quiet possibly the cheapest compared to the going rate of cigarrettes and drugs these days. You saved me money when I got things at half price because they were from the children’s department. And perhaps you didn’t cause me to drunk dial anyone and totally embarrass myself.
You did serve me. Maybe I needed you. I needed something, anything to fill that emptiness, that hunger. And you seemed to keep me functioning. You got me through high school, college, even culinary school (I even think you pushed me to go there!). Yes, I think that if you had not been around, I would have not had such an obsession with food and feeding everyone and hence I otherwise probably would have not gone to culinary school.
Ok, but enough stroking you ego. Like I said, I’m not here to be friends again.
Because lets face it bud, you ruined my relationship with food. You caused me to feel anxious about certain foods and dictating rules about which foods were “good” and “bad” and how often I could eat them. You convinced me to punish myself when I broke your rules, and you even forbade me from eating my favorite fruit. You made me forget how to eat normally. You depleted me of my natural enthusiasm and optimism and caused me to isolate myself from my family and friends. You made me forfeit birthday parties, girls nights out, and even chance to travel because you didn’t want to me to eat certain foods and you told me I needed to exercise. You took away my sense of humor and instead made me sad and hopeless. What a crazy bitch you were! Sure, you got me jeans or whatever from Gap kids, but doesn’t take a genius to realize that without a functioning heart there would be no one to even put on the jeans. ED, you don’t make any sense, and I’m sick of it so take your jeans back. I’m not a kid anymore and I haven’t been for a long time.
Therefore ED, as hard as this may be, this is probably the last you’ll hear from me and I hope I never hear from you again. If you try to contact me, I will be busy living the life I deserve and have no time for you. I won’t “friend” you on facebook, follow you on twitter, or even answer a text. I plan on deleting you for good. C’ya, and wouldn’t want to be ya!
With sincere hatred,
And now, on to some more Thanksgiving recipes. I’m actually not to excited about thanksgiving this year. I feel it will be very blah. Lots of people my dad’s age, my roommate, and the dog we are sitting that weekend for. Anyhow, I have the whole week off from work so I’m testing some recipes. These were a good, they just might end up on the menu. The following recipe make about 14 mini (and yes, they are teeny) muffins, so maybe double it up if your planing to make this for a hungry crowd.
-1/2 cup oat bran
-1/4 cup oatmeal
-1 tbs honey or agave
-1/4 cup soy/almond milk (or regular milk)
-1 tbs flaxmeal
-1/2 tsp baking powder
-2 tbs canola oil
-1 persimmon, diced into small chunks