I don’t know if you all have this problem, but I’d like to start a “I can’t decide support group”.
Astrology freaks have warned me that it’s because I’m a Libra that I’m so indecisive. It may have something to do with it, but I also think it manifests into other aspects of my history and my life.
There is evidence to my indecisiveness from my early years as a toddler. My dad was practically ready to put me up for adoption after me agonizing over which cereal too choose for breakfast. It sorta went like this:
Dad: What kind of cereal would you like?
4yr old Eden: What kind do we have
Dad: Cheerios, mini wheats, and Toasted Oatmeal Squares
4yr old Eden: Cheerios!
(Dad opens fresh cheerio box)
4yr old Eden: no, actually mini wheats!
Dad: I just opened a new package of cheerios! now they will get stale quicker! Fine….(gets mini wheats box, bowl and proceeds to pour….)
4yr old Eden: FINE! I dont want stale cheerios! I wan fresh cheerios! so I’ll have cheerios!
Dad: I you sure
4 yr old Eden: yes
(Dad pours cheerios into bowl, gets a spoon…)
4yr old Eden: Actually…..what what that other option?
Dad: you’ll miss Mr, Rodgers if you don’t make up your mind soon. We also have toasted oatmeal squares.
4yr old Eden: ok, no I still want cheerios
Dad: thank god
(passed me the bowl and as I’m about to dig in…)
4yr old Eden: But I love mini wheats too! I dont want to hurt their feelings
Dad: Mini wheats dont have feelings! I’ve had enough!
(he pours all three into a bowl and I sulk because I’ve missed Mr. Rodgers taking off his sneakers which is the best part of the show.
Anyhow, I struggle with this all the time, every day. Sometimes its minor, like which blogs to read or which movies to netflix. Other times its brutal. What career should I go after, should I go on a date with “that” guy, whats the wisest thing to buy…etc.
When it gets too food, its always tough. I like restaurants where my options are limited. Delis suck cause they have menus that resemble a twilight series book. I am also indecisive about how I feel about my body. Some days I feel too thin, some days I feel too fat, sometimes I love the way my hair looks, and today, I’m willing to go bald.
I often wish decision were just made for me. Although I know I would get pissed at that too. I like having the power to decide, but yet it would be easier if decision were simply made for me. Once again, evidence to my reluctance to grow up and take on the responsibilities of adulthood.
Currently, I’m very behind on my blog reading and my house cleaning because I’m wasting my precious time surfing kayak and yelp trying to decided on when to book my flight and hotel for foodbuzz (although I have two nights already booked, I decided to stay an extra night so I need to book for that night). I factor in too much (money, amenities, location, etc) and I keep thinking I should wait hoping prices might drop. In the meantime, my laundry is piling up, my google reader is bursting, and I still dont have a flight or hotel.
But all in all, indecision is basically the seed of fear. Fear of making the “wrong” decision. But really, what the worst that can happen if I chose mini wheats over cheerios? I suppose nothing. What a waste of fear that was. or was it? I don’t know, I can’t decide.
Anyhow, in desserts class we made candy corn popcorn in celebration for Halloween. . For the record, I don’t love candy corn. I have one or two and think hmm ok….but more than that and I start to feel sick. Anyhow, kids love them and they pay me to handle some kids for an hour, so why not. To make the popcorn you will need:
– 2 tbs canola oil
-1/2 cup plain popcorn kernals
-about 2 tbs sugar
-dash of salt
-candy corn (the more kids, the more candy corn)
Heat the oil in a sauce pan that has a lid (if your like me and tend to lose lids, a plate will do). Once it gets hot, drop a few kernels and wait to see if they pop. One they do, pour the rest of your kernels.
Pour in the sugar and candy corn once most of them have popped but leave on the heat so they melt a little.
Serve and beware, there are no leftovers with kiddies running around.