Hello lurkers and bloggers.
For those of you who drive often, I think you are familiar with pumping fuel. I’m a weirdo in that I actually love the smell of gasoline. A lot of perfumes make me gag, but I could smell gasoline all day. I would die shortly after of the toxic fumes, but still. We always like things that are not good for us, right?
We all know food is our fuel, thats a no brainer. No really! Because if you dont take enough food, your brain starts to go missing (lame joke, forgive me).
But I think we all have other sources of “fuel” for a physical and mental needs. I thought I would share with you some of mine:
-Photos: I suppose this is where I actually facebook comes in handy because I can browse through albums. But photos of me as a child (including those spotlighted in flashback friday) remind me who I was before I was cursed with an eating disorder. A lot of my work getting myself out of the ED hell hole is getting back in touch with my inner child. I was an intuitive eater, I played, I danced, I was everything good that the eating disorder stripped away. Cutting down on the exercise and nourishing properly has helped bring that little girl back. I’m funny and outgoing again, I find joy in painting and even playing skip it. I cant dance like Beyoncé, but really, who can? Anyhow, I always look a picture of me as kid when I doubt my recovery or start to feel guilty about my body/food/exercise. I admit, I was pretty damn cute, and I dont fancy little kids normally!
-my yoga mat: I find that one’s yoga mat is so much more than a mere sticky mat. Its a sanctuary of sorts. I try to leave my issues aside when step on it. I try to be “one with my body and my mind” when I’m on it (I know, that line was super corny, but true nonetheless). I’ve meditated, sweat, cried, grunted, and slept on that thing. I stare at her (yes, I decided the mat is a “her”) and get motivated to do my body good. Whether it be a yoga sequence or meditation. I never regret what happens on her. Plus, she’s a beautiful purple color!
-My mom: Its not what you may think. Of course I loved her dearly, but what keeps me going is her history with cancer. I’m not asking for a pity party, so I will say this with the outmost humor (if thats possible). See, she had cancer since I was born, and died of it thirteen years later. She lost her hair, retained a lot of water and gained some weight, had no eyelashes or eye brows. Basically, a lot of the trademarks of femininity were stripped away. But she strutted her extra junk, found the best wig she could get her hands on and made the best out of it. Compared to her, my life ain’t so tough. plus, I also don’t have an annoying adolescent daughter like she had (and I mean me).
– Awesome Bloggers: Sometimes, when feel worthless and “whats the point” about my life, I look at old blog comments. I think developing the connections through blogs is invaluable. WAY more valuable than “facebook” friends or “followers” o twitter. Blogs are windows into our minds, our canvas of expression. We feel like we know people on a whole other level. That being said though, some blogs give me the willies. Some are so dark and depressing, or just plain strange. I dont frequent those. But the ones I do read give me some sense of purpose, and of course, my blog gives me that same sense. Not to stroke my ego or anything, but I think some people look forward to read my new posts. I know I look forward to comments, good and bad ones, although I consider myself very thankful no one has left nasty ones. I honestly expect someone to rip me a mean one since tend to be honest and uncensored. But thank you to those who I’ve developed a blog friendship with. You “fuel” me.
What “fuels” you up?
I know I promised the “english muffin garlic bread”, but I made this bread this morning and it turned out so good, I had to share it. The cool thing, this is not a big batch, so its good for “single serving” people out there. You will need
-about 3/4 cup oatmeal
-1/4 cup oat bran
-30g or 1/4 cup protein powder of choice (I used the vanilla Jay Rob egg white protein powder, only because I had a free sample packet. You can certainly use whichever powder you like. I personally like the jay rob since they are the more natural side)
-about 1/4 cup dried black figs chopped into pieces
-1 tbs flaxmeal
-2 tbs almond butter
-1/2 c water
(optional) extra sweetener depending on if you want it “sweet” or not, I personally thought the powder and figs sufficed.
-garnish with sunflower seeds
Super simple. Preheat oven to 450 degrees. Mix all the ingredients together (I used my hand, the best and most expensive tool in my kitchen). Put in a loaf pan and bake for about 20-30 min (ovens vary, check after about 20 minuets).