I haven’t talked much about my fears on the blog, but today I will admit a big one. Believe it or not, it has nothing to do with weight or food.
I got a little chill just typing it. But since saturday, my back wisdom tooth thats been coming in has been absolutly killing me. Yes, I’m well aware how late it is to have them come in, but I was always a late bloomer. I lost my last baby tooth when I was 14! The same year aunt flow came around (although sadly do to me disorder, she came and went, boo hoo).
And I hate and ashamed to admit it, but I have avoided the dentist for the paster few years. Yep, not months, years! I had braces through all of high school, and I would have to go to the orthodontitst on a weekly basis, so I think I just got sick of it and avoided it after college. But I hate the cotton they use, I hate the feeling of people shoving metal into my mouth, I hate reclining with my mouth wide open, I hate the smell, everything! I just think the experience as a whole sucks. I don’t get how some people LOVE the dentist. Maybe its because they never had a filling or braces. Anyhow I’m also terrified of having the wisdom tooth pulled (which I’m pretty confident will happen) and I’m scared I have a billion cavities I didn’t know about since I haven’t had a check up in so long. I didn’t have any cavities last time, so I’m afraid my “perfect” teeth will not be so perfect anymore. Sorry to whine, but my mouth is in serious pain and the thought of not eating crunchy food is making me sad.
Anyhow, this got me thinking about fears. Fears are a big theme with most mental disorders. Fear pushes us to do certain things. Sometimes they push us to do positive acts and sometime negative ones. I suppose avoiding to go to the dentist because of fear is obviously a negative one.
My wise dietitian always reminds me the best remedy for fear is exposure. The more we expose ourselves to what we are afraid of, the more secure we feel about it. Granted, this is a lot easier said than done. I’ve been “detoxed” from exercise a few times (meaning NO light walks, yoga, and basically anything physical) a few times. Sure, I’m not as terrified about not working out, but I still have feelings of guilt on missed workouts. I get bummed, but I’m not afraid I’ll gain a crazy amount of weight because I have evidence from my “exposure” that nothing will happen to me or may body. I’ll still be strong (maybe stronger) and I won’t “balloon” like my fears want me to believe.
Most yoga newbies are terrified of inversions (going into upside down poses like head or handstand). But when they actually do them (correctly and safety) they get this awesome high and huge feeling of confidence! I usually try to get new students to try inversions if I know they are strong enough. Besides the fact that I think the doing the actual poses sell themselves (because they do feel awesome), once they do them, they feel empowered and fearless. I try to do an inversion everyday for at least five minutes. Yogi masters sometimes stay in them for hours. I think the longest i have gone was in an Iyengar yoga class and it was in shoulder stand for about 30 minutes.
Anyhow, some people think its absolutly absurd that I was afraid of simple foods like peanut butter and olive oil (I had a weird thing about fats). But I exposed myself to them, countless times, and have simmered the fear a bit. Now I’m afraid of having a whole jar of peanut butter around simply because I’m afraid I’ll devour it in no time. Anyhow I thought I’d research some fears that are a little nutty (pun intended) incase you have food fears that you feel bad about:
-Geniophobia- Fear of chins. Hmmm I guess also a fear of Jay Leno.
-Levophobia- Fear of things to the left side of the body (as opposed to the right???)
-Clinophobia- Fear of going to bed. I suppose this happens with little children or maybe this is Something “Nightmare on Elm Street” spawned.
-eladophobia – Fear of bald people. Or maybe just a fear of Ben Kingsly or Britney Spears post nervous breakdown.
-Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia – Fear of long words (can you even pronounce that word?)
-Lachanophobia – Fear of vegetables (hmmm….clearly not my case)
-Pogonophobia – Fear of beards. I think this can actually be somewhat understandable. I means seriously, when you see some guy stroking his beard, thats creepy! right?! Beards tend make you look more trashy and creepy. IE, Brad Pitt, Joaquin Phoenix, and I personally think Billy Rae Cyrus is creepy with his little blonde beard. ewwwww.
And now for some phobias I made up:
Mileyophobia: fear of Miley Cyrus
Quagophobia: fear of Quagmire from “Family Guy” or people that resemble him (like sex addicts).
waifophoboa: fear of skinny people
popophobia: fear of anything that pops, ie: poptarts, popcorn, popovers, poppy seed, etc
Bravophobia: fear of Bravo shows, see also “homophobia”
Blogophobia: fear of creepy bloggers (ummmm no comment)
Oshitophobia: fear of one night stands you cant remember
Snugophobia: fear of a mass of people dressed in snuggies
For todays food, we have a vanilla kabocha custard! What youll need is:
-a cup or so of greek or plain yogurt
-1/4 c milk of choice (i used coconut)
-1/8 tsp guar gum or xanthum gum or agar agar would wor too
Blend all the ingredients and chill in the freezer for about an hour. Top with roasts kacocha, nuts (I used peanuts), and your favorite toppings (I used so nutritional yeast, weird sounding but trust me! delicious!