So…… good news! I got myself to bed earlier and woke up earlier today! yay me! this might not sound like a big deal but I loved getting my day started earlier!
So after my assisting at Yoga Works, I went to my hairdresser, conveniently two blocks down from the studio to revamp my coif. You see lately, I’ve been going through an “ugly”. My lack of sleep, lack of sunshine, and lack of time for hair maintenance left me, well, sorta like a muppet. My hair was getting super long and annoying.
Enter my decision to chop a good four inches. To be honest, I dont love it. In fact, I’m still feeling rather unattractive, I have heard men find girls with short hair less attractive. I think its very a very “mom jean” cut. I had to cut it shorter though. Hopefully I’ll redo my high lights next week so i will get a little more dimension.
This got me thinking a lot about people’s relationship with their hair. Of course, I’ve talked a lot about people’s relationship to food, but its amazing the way hair affects people’s mood, energy, personality, everything really.
I have this fear I will go bald.
My mom got her first fierce chemo treatment when I was about 8 and I saw her lose all her hair. For a few months, she had a shiny, hair less head. She covered it with a wig in public, but I know it crushed her. She was ALL about the hair. She had big ass curls and she had A LOT of them. It was so strange to see her with no hair. But she had such a gorgeous, luminous face, bright forest green eyes, that I think she maybe even looked more beautiful without the hair to distract.
Once again, regardless of her beauty, I know her hair loss crushed her.
She had another round of chemo when I was 12, a year before she passed away. She’d have to lose all the hair she re-grew beautifully form the first round. This time, her attitude was different. I think she embraced it that time around. She wore a wig the first few weeks, than ditched it. I don’t blame her, its itchy and got really hot under there (believe me, I’d used to try it on all the time around the house). It was an expensive wig too! custom made by dolly parton’s wig specialist (its la, those exist around here), and made from real hair. It look EXACTLY like her natural hair! But she found the confidence within her to ditch it and sported a bare head proudly. Like a badge of breast cancer honor.
When she died. that wig gave me the creeps. I did something so sad one day, I put in on her pillow, on her side of the bed in my parents room, and stood far away to see if it looks like she was there, sleeping beneath the covers. But it was just scary and a I bursted into tears.
My dad informed me a few years ago that he gave that wig to his colleague’s wife who had chemo. I’m glad someone made good use of that wig.
Sometimes, I have a horrible day simply because my hair is not behaving. And this is the case with many people, even men. But I do try to remember about my mom’s attitude. I try to remember I have such gorgeous features that I dont need to have my hair mask. Plus, when I’m in a bad mood, it tends to be contagious and I wouldn’t want to spread that around. So next time you feel your hair is a mess or that “ugly” phase, be thankful you have hair, pull it back, and show off your gorgeous face.
I never have good transitions into my recipes, but heres what I had for my dessert part of my lunch! Chocolate Tofu Pudding!
in a blender I mixed:
-1 whole package (or box really) of mori-nu firm tofu
-2 tbs cocoa powder
-1/8 guar gum
-about 1/4 cup almond milk
-1tsp vanilla extract
(note you may add a sweetener, but I love the cocoaness of it all without sweetener)
I blended it and then made chocolate syrup by blending 2 tbs cocoa powder with 1 tbs coconut butter. Then I swirled it!
now go pull your hair back and admire your gorgeous features!